The Quiet Night and The Meditator

No words, or phrases,
Just a still night.
A single body sat,
Draped in a coral shirt,
Leaning over the water's edge,
Toes tickling the cool liquid.
 
Nothing too hard to think about,
Nothing too simple to neglect.
A single body sat,
Not a worry in the world,
Next to the picnic basket,
And old wooden banjo.
 
No love, or hate,
Just a quiet night,
A single body sat,
Beneath the willow,
Protected from the world,
The busy streets,
And the noise of the car.
 
No companion, or nuisance,
Just the minds-eye.
A meditator sits,
For another round,
Another attempt at bliss.
A gentle breath,
The only sound.

Love is a Fool

the mystery of the heart
something we all wish to understand
yet become baffled by
mumbling fools, the creation
beauty, the cause
a servitude of 'could haves'
a lifetime of 'would haves'
all meet to make a concoction
of weak kneed wide eyed
butterfly filled idiots
all stargazing the bountiful sky.

Time to Stop Talking

Sometimes I need to,
Sometimes I can't say,
All of the most important things.
But I think that now,
It's time to stop talking.
I need not to run my mouth,
I need not to say all those things,
Because soon,
You'll start to hate me,
If you don't already,
And if you do already,
That's justified
But I think that now,
It's time to stop talking.

Steps

Baby steps,
What a contorted phrase,
A strange way of putting things,
It's twisted, messed up,
Weird.
Why when you take things slowly
Do you take baby steps?
Babies don't walk,
They have nowhere to go,
Everything is brought to them,
Everything is handed, gifted, given.
When you take baby steps,
It's never just handed to you.
It's never just gifted.
It's never just given.
What a stupid phrase.

Musings of a Rail-Goer

Sat on another train,
Going to a go between station,
A place I've no meaning to visit,
Yet my hand is forced.
My ticket dictates the destination,
I pay the fare once,
To sit upon two trains,
And wait between a
Fifth or sixth of an hour.
This dead time, I detest,
I must pay the luxury of it.

Sat inside the metal box,
I pass through the wind tunnel,
Sometimes it is painted,
With leaves and berries,
Other times with red bricks.
Either way, the noise: inescapable.
The engines growl without clarity,
A murmured noise only the tracks,
With heir incomprehensible gabble,
Can claim to understand.
The two communicate loudly,
Exchanging indifferent noises.
One can only assume
That they are battling vocally.

There is nothing melodic about trains,
Their speed far too varied,
By the time the metronome
Is able to match its tempo,
The engine slurs to legato.
Should one ride by an open window,
You'll hear the violins of the rail orchestra,
Screaming in protest.
Much like an athletes muscles,
Right after vigorous training.
Unpleasant to say the least.

To try and sit still - impossible,
One is thrown like a rag doll.
To and fro, as though a puppet.
I often wonder if that's why,
Does this franchise see us as puppets?
Is that why ticket prices yo-yo?
To pull our wallet strings,
And make us dig into our pockets?
Timetables are manipulated,
To prevent us demanding refunds,
Which their policies deny anyway.
They cram us in like sardines,
Airtight seals, it preserves our freshness.

If one reserves a seat today,
They have paid for the luxury,
That exclusive chance,
To engage in an altercation.
The man in your seat,
He also paid his fare,
He too deserves a seat.
The journey of hours and more,
Dictates he should be seated
For at least six sevenths of it.
But you paid for that argument,
Fooled into believing your set is guaranteed.

Options

I'll admit, I'm Picky,
Options don't suit me,
Choices are too many for my liking.
Two, three or over four,
I'm purely indecisive.

Staying is an option,
I'd be at liberty to take,
Should life stop pushing and pulling,
Because I'll be honest,
Leaving is the worst.

I'd say I love him,
But I'd be lying,
Especially when I know how I feel,
But I daren't say,
Life is not that easy.

I'd say I love you,
But my lips won't,
My heart betrays them like that.
The option's there,
My soul thinks so too.

Where

Where should I stand,
In the corner?
Head bowed
Trying to prove my guilty side,
That it was always right?

Where should I stand?
Behind the pews?
Hands clasped
Asking for forgiveness from a god
That I never believed.

Where should I stand?
In the middle of the ocean?
Chest tight
Breath choked out of my lungs,
like the truth.

Where should I stand?
On a sandy beach?
Toes spread
Celebrating my only victory of
Conquering my own mind.

Where should I stand?
Before your eyes?
Nervous - shaking
Waiting to be judged - scolded,
Applauded - hated - loved.

Where do I stand?

Unforgivable

Sorry shan't heal my wounds,
It won't take away my pain.
What happened, unforgivable, evil,
And I've yet to understand it all.

I used to unfathomably trust,
To let people understand me,
Yet now these scars,
​Prevent me from standing free.

How could a friendly gesture,
Breach all walls of protection,
Leave me unguarded, insecure,
Fearful of the monster, that's you.

I doubt my own mental strength,
And your strategic attack
Shatters any fortitude remaining,
To grant your one, unforgivable wish.